From Shattered to whole.
In unpacking little by little what kept me stuck where I didn’t feel good, I learned about the patterns of self-sabotage that held me immobilized. Unsatisfied. Unfulfilled. Hurt. And confused. And I had to sit down, get real with myself to find ways to move forward into a new life of bliss and calmness.
My whole life before.
I was struggling with ADHD and complex traumas - CPTSD. My normalcy was a never-ending state of self-doubts, self-judgements, anxiety, depression, codependency, unfulfillments ... you name it. I pushed away anyone who cared, and was surrounded by people who didn’t accept me completely. Emotional issues manifested in physical dis-eases. For years, I had daily stomach pains; I was exhausted all the time and, living in a woman body, experienced hormonal highs and lows that threw my life into spirals. At work, I was the dedicated sociable coworker who could connect with anyone. Yet I felt nothing like what people thought of me. I felt dead inside.
One day I decided that this could no longer be my life. I didn’t know how, but an inner voice told me that there were better ways to live. To move beyond surviving.
CHANGE IS POSSIBLE.
I committed to doing emotional healing, met people who showed up for me in times of needs, did a physical nutrition reset which helped me switch to a conscious and healthier way of life. Then, I got a Life Activation from my Guide in the Modern Mystery School and went through an Empower Thyself Initiation. I started feeling more grounded and more confident in my own body. The days of hardships get shorter and easier. I became able to lift myself up from the mental loops that used to keep me in pains. Using ancient time-tested tools opened in front of me the doors I was searching for, yet didn’t know were possible.
I did it because i didn’t accept where i was.
Now, letting go of what has been hurting, I am constantly shifting into a higher state of being and enjoying everything life has to offer. With a clearer and stronger sense of self and life values, I am able to return to my inner calmness and groundedness whenever I need to. And in healing myself, I remembered what I’ve always wanted to do since I was a little child: helping others heal themselves to be who they want to be and contribute to the world to their heart’s content.